rejectomorph (flying_blind) wrote,
rejectomorph
flying_blind

Sadly

The instability of seasonal change has set in. For the moment, we are back to summery heat. A few days might bring autumnal chill. Thus far, we have had no winter cold. It is a time of mixed feelings. I am pleased that the hot season is almost gone, but do not look forward to the winter. Fall is pleasant, but always makes me a bit sad. The receding sun, the shortened days, the passing of a year's green leaves, are all too much loss for me. This year will be worse than usual, I think. There is too much in my life which is unlikely to see another spring. I don't deal well with partings. After seventeen years in this place, I still miss my old home, and the things here which have provided some distraction from that old sadness grow frail, even as the things I have always disliked about this place grow more intense. I cannot return, and will soon lose the desire to remain, and lack any place to go. Thus, the withering leaves and dying flowers are now more difficult to endure, and those of my waking thoughts which are not troubled turn ever more to aimless memory, or to sleep.
Subscribe

  • Reset Twenty-Two, Day Six

    Monday brought more sleep, this time from about one o'clock in the afternoon until just after six in the evening. The one advantage of that was that…

  • Reset Twenty-Two, Day Five

    The sleep schedule weirdness is continuing. Sunday I woke up around two o'clock in the afternoon after sleeping almost eight hours, but when ten…

  • Reset Twenty-Two, Day Four

    Saturday got less slept away than Thursday or Friday but I still didn't get up until three o'clock in the afternoon. It's not like I'm missing much,…

  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 3 comments