rejectomorph (flying_blind) wrote,


For the last ten days, I have been enduring the highest level of sustained anxiety I have ever experienced. I have no idea what to do about it. None of the techniques I usually use are sufficent to deal with it. I feel both trapped and doomed. I am exhausted from lack of sleep, eating is difficult even when I feel hungry, each distraction quickly fails, and every attempt at reason ends in paranoid thinking. I can't sort out my thoughts about the situation enough to even explain it. Anxiety disorders bite, and the evil people who set them off bite even more. I keep wishing for some huge natural disaster, just so there will be something for me to focus my energy on. I wish I had never come to this place. May the Earth heave up and shake it out of existence.

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