rejectomorph (flying_blind) wrote,
rejectomorph
flying_blind

Reset Thirty-Seven, Day Twenty-Nine

So the usual, odd sleeping hours (brain hamster going crazy at nine in the morning, total collapse at four in the afternoon, waking again well after nightfall) and not knowing what to eat (ending with chips and sour cream instead of dinner.) Wednesday got bright, which was undoubtedly one of the reasons I was unable to get back to sleep after waking four hours in. Then I did get outside fairly early in the morning, and did here a few birds singing, including a brief concert from the mockingbird, so maybe worth it? I don't know anymore.

My thoughts have not been stories or poems. They are mostly pointless frustrations. I distract myself with Internet and boring chores. I think about reading books, but lack the concentration. Things I'm out of or almost out of: donuts, milk, orange juice, popcorn, carrot juice, my favorite soups and ramen, plain sparkling water. Things I haven't had the focus to arrange: getting groceries, getting the bills into the mail. Things that are increasingly apparent: I'm not getting smarter with age, nor is my disposition improving.

Mostly cloudy days ahead, but rain likely only very late tonight and Friday. I'm sober at the moment, and wish I'd thought to get drunk. Now it's too late, as I have to sleep again.
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