January 8th, 2012

laszlo moholy-nagy_chx

Events Turn of Strange

An unexpected flip has occurred. I slept much of the night and have been awake since before six o'clock this morning. Well, mostly awake. For much of the day it's been more like having a very convincing dream that I'm awake, but that's hardly surprising. I'm so unaccustomed to being awake in the morning that it seemed I had wandered into an unfamiliar world. The sun was on the wrong side of the sky!

Then by afternoon I'd grown drowsy, but didn't dare to let myself nap for fear that I'd wake up after sunset, and nothing puts me out of sorts more than waking after sunset. Afternoons can substitute for mornings, but evenings cannot. If I'm going to wake up to darkness, I want it to be when the chickens are waking, not when they are going to roost.

Now I'm faced with the problem of staying awake after dinner. If I go to sleep now, I'll probably wake up about midnight, and that's almost as bad a time to wake up as evening. I'll probably resort to caffeine. Anyway, the whole disruption has left me somewhat dazed, and I'm not sure what I'm doing. What tomorrow will be like I have no idea. Maybe I'll be even loopier than I am right now.

And something creaks in my neck every time I yawn, which is often. Weirdness on weirdness.

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