April 18th, 2005



It feels very strange to be multi-tasking. Sluggo would never allow me to do that. And I'm not only multi-tasking, I'm doing it while my toes are warm! The only thing that could be better is if I weren't on this slooooow dial-up connection. The download has been stuck at about 37 minutes for several minutes now, because my ISP's speed keeps dropping. I'm wondering if it's going to drop by 50%, so that when half the file has been downloaded, I'll still have the same amount of time to go that I had when the download started. And then it will drop by another 50%, and another and another, so that it never actually finishes. I will be here multi-tasking for ages! The sun will go nova and earth be burnt to crisp while the last kilobyte is being downloaded! I must get broadband!

Oh, crap. It stopped about a quarter of the way through and I can't get it started again. Firefox has no resume button that I can find. Wait. You hit the pause button and the resume button appears. And then you hit the resume button and nothing happens (except that the pause button reappears.) Well. Failure. 2.7 K was a miserable speed anyway. That's what I get for living at the end of a very, very long telephone line.

The sky is getting pale. I think I'll go to sleep.
caillebotte_the orangerie


The April light is perfect. The marigolds, black-eyed susans, azaleas, lilies, lilacs, dogwood and magnolia blossoms all grow vivid in its glow, as do the young, translucent leaves of the mulberry tree and the oaks, and the plush lawns. Clouds come and go, white or blue-gray, a constant parade of changing shapes decorating the sky. Each hour brings more birds, and the entire afternoon is filled with songs. The apple orchard's foliage is now dense, concealing the distance. The world grows smaller and livelier in spring. The mountain ridges and open fields are less noticeable, and he smallest insects attract attention as they dart here and there on wings that shimmer with sunlight. Only the briskness of the active air prevents me from dozing as watch the scene, so strong is the light's hypnotic invitation to merge with its revealed dream.