Most years my energy increases around this time, but I'm not sure that will happen this year. My energy levels have been lower than usual all winter, and I suspect that this might continue. It's possible that my diet is to blame, at least in part. The deterioration of my diet, in turn, is at least partly the result of my loss of any regular schedule. I don't sleep regularly, and therefore don't eat regularly, and then I end up snacking on stuff that I'm sure isn't good for me. The lack of energy makes it even more difficult to sleep regularly and prepare decent meals, so the whole thing becomes a vicious circle.
I could probably boil the situation down to the pie is trying to kill me, though I know it's more than just pie. But pie makes a good symbol. Plus if I blame the pie I can go on eating ice cream, which is probably just as bad, if not worse. I wish I could stop eating and just live on fragrances. Then late spring and early summer would be a feast of fresh grass, pine, roses, and finally jasmine. Oh, and rain, in good years. No rain is expected for at least a week, but there could be some for the middle of May. I hope there is. It might take my mind off that pie for a while.