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The Quiet [Aug. 31st, 2014|07:24 pm]
I'm drawing a blank. Maybe all the words from television flowing into my ears coax my own words out, and being without television I have nothing to say. The birds chattering in my back yard this evening make more sense than my thoughts do.

The black cat lying like a sphinx, but untroubled by a human head, has no need of words. He listens to the birds and waits for an opportunity to change the song of one into a satisfying meal. Meaning for him is what goes into his stomach.

As for me, my stomach goes queasy when I have nothing to say. It might mean I have nothing to mean. It might mean that this fading day with its dry air and desultory breeze has been wasted, and it would be a shame that it was so much like every other day these days. And it's a shame that I have no television to turn on and through it escape my own empty silence.

Sunday Verse

Meditations in Lagunitas

by Robert Hass

All the new thinking is about loss.
In this it resembles all the old thinking.
The idea, for example, that each particular erases
the luminous clarity of a general idea. That the clown-
faced woodpecker probing the dead sculpted trunk
of that black birch is, by his presence,
some tragic falling off from a first world
of undivided light. Or the other notion that,
because there is in this world no one thing
to which the bramble of blackberry corresponds,
a word is elegy to what it signifies.
We talked about it late last night and in the voice
of my friend, there was a thin wire of grief, a tone
almost querulous. After a while I understood that,
talking this way, everything dissolves: justice,
pine, hair, woman, you
and I. There was a woman
I made love to and I remembered how, holding
her small shoulders in my hands sometimes,
I felt a violent wonder at her presence
like a thirst for salt, for my childhood river
with its island willows, silly music from the pleasure boat,
muddy places where we caught the little orange-silver fish
called pumpkinseed. It hardly had to do with her.
Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances. I must have been the same to her.
But I remember so much, the way her hands dismantled bread,
the thing her father said that hurt her, what
she dreamed. There are moments when the body is as numinous
as words, days that are the good flesh continuing.
Such tenderness, those afternoons and evenings,
saying blackberry, blackberry, blackberry.