My Ducks Were Not in a Row |
[Jul. 3rd, 2011|06:50 pm]
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How inattentive and forgetful I've become! Last Tuesday was the tenth anniversary of this journal, and I forgot it. I'd been watching the date, too, but it slipped by nonetheless, and all I wrote about was the rain and the fact that my metaphorical ducks were not in a row. Ten years of entries rated not a mention, presumably because they rated not a thought that day.
It's not that I was living too much in the moment, either, as I can barely focus on the now these days. I was off somewhere I now don't even recall, and only dragged my consciousness into Tuesday long enough to note that it was overcast and wet. I wonder if I'm keeping a journal in some alternate reality where I go when I'm not paying attention to this one? I'd like to know what goes on there, where my mind now spends so much of its time.
Sunday Verse
For a Naturalist Dead at Sea
by Adrienne Rich
We'll not deplore you, though we know what's gone The sea in no laborious swell can haul Back on our beaches; such a freight as yours Will never deck our tideline. Out of love You gathered learning, and your human kin If loved no more than conches, than the race Of crayfish or the childish porpoises, Were yet well loved by you. We mourn to hear Of bridegrooms gathered nightward by the gales, Of boon companions chug-a-lugging brine, Lost to the red interior, the benign Circle of beer-lit faces. You, our friend Were still the friend of all that crept or swam: We cannot think you lonely where you end.
Why should we call you shoreward? You will speak With the drowned captain drifting by the shoal On which his ship was broken; you will hear The lonely scuffle of the hermit crab Seeking an empty tenement. The trail Of nets and anchors off the human coast Will not detain you, nor the squeak of rudders Far overhead. Oh, you will loaf and drowse By fans of seaweed nodding in the stir Of ocean currents. You will drink the cream Of the great wetnurse whale, and hear from her The lullabies that make leviathan dream.
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