||[Nov. 21st, 2010|11:44 pm]
Rain returns to wash the driveway clear of snow and liberate the reflected day, the storming clouds, the patches of blue sky that provide brief sunshowers. The vanishing snow also reveals masses of leaves which now cover the lawn that two days ago was almost clear of them. Everything is changed. The peach tree is all bare twigs, the sourgrass flattened from the weight of snow, the frigid air full of drifting plumes of smoke released from chimneys. |
Clumps of snow line the street like twin rows of slowly dissolving monuments. The corpses of so many summers lie buried there. Someday the pavement shall have been melted away, and the rains will soak soils long burdened, and green things will thrust toward the solar warmth once imprisoned by asphalt. Some things take longer to change than others, but storms change everything, sooner of later.
I, I, I
by Hayden Carruth
First, the self. Then, the observing self.
The self that acts and the self that watches. This
The starting point, the place where the mind begins,
Whether the mind of an individual or
The mind of a species. When I was a boy
I struggled to understand. For if I know
The self that watches, another watching self
Must see the watcher, then another watching that,
Another and another, and where does it end?
So my mother sent me to the barber shop,
My first time, to get my hair "cut for a part"
(Instead of the dutch boy she'd always given me),
As I was instructed to tell the barber. She
Dispatched me on my own because the shop,
Which had a pool table in the back, in that
Small town was the men's club, and no woman
Would venture there. Was it my first excursion
On my own into the world? Perhaps. I sat
In the big chair. The wall behind me held
A huge mirror, and so did the one in front,
So that I saw my own small strange blond head
With its oriental eyes and turned up nose repeated
In ever diminishing images, one behind
Another behind another, and I tried
To peer farther and farther into the succession
To see the farthest one, diminutive in
The shadows. I could not. I sat rigid
And said no word. The fat barber snipped
My hair and blew his brusque breath on my nape
And finally whisked away his sheet, and I
climbed down. I ran from that cave of mirrors
A mile and a half to home, to my own room
Up under the eaves, which was another cave.
It had no mirrors. I no longer needed mirrors.